I GOT A 'B' IN CHEMISTRY! WOOT!

so you are probably thinking, "only a 'b'?! this is the third time you took this class you dumbass ..." 

shut it. 

i just got to work for the day. i am also done with chemistry. i took my final this morning at 8 am and then my mom drove me to galveston for work. i don't feel great but it's ok because i am through with chemistry for the rest of my foreseeable future. 

i should be studying but i just got out of the shower and am waiting for my dinner so ... i am not in the mood. i haven't been in the mood at all today actually. i have only practiced 4 questions and my test is tomorrow. i was planning on going to work today and studying there but utmb was closed today because of the tropical storm. i am going to take my test tomorrow morning and then my mom is going to drive me to galveston for work. i may just drive myself ... but i don't know. 

i haven't been feeling good and my mom thinks it is because i am having withdrawal symptoms from all the pain medication that i had been taking ... i feel terrible and just want to sleep all the time. 

ugh. my gums are soooo itchy. jordan had his surgery and he says that it hurts a little but all in all it is ok. lauren said that he was really drugged up when he got out ... all i know is that he sent me some pretty profane text messages to let me know that he was ok. he is at the houston hilton right now and his family is going to a baseball game later today. 

also, he said that i complained a lot at the beginning of the whole surgery thing. i say that is not true. i always own up to my complaining and i think i only started complaining around day 4. so there. 

also jordan told me something that is really cute ... 

did you know that cheerios are just donut seeds?!? 

i believed him for about a minute ... i was all like "REALLY?!"

that is all. i have to study now and figure out what to eat. i am starving because i had food really early last night and didn't have a proper dinner ... just a late lunch. 

hi hi! 

i got to work half an hour earlier than i typically get here. i am not particularly happy about that because it means that i will be here longer than usual. grr. i really hate this job and i am pretty sure that this will be the last summer that i do this. i made the amount of money that i wanted and i'm sure i will get any recommendation that i need for med school or anything else that i may need a recommendation for and this job just makes me really unhappy. also it is really starting to annoy me when my dad says that some results are "really exciting" because they really are not. they are nothing close to exciting. i mean i am the type of person who gets giddy about a sheet of stickers ... if i don't find something exciting, it's not.

also, i am not really happy with my dad right now. yesterday i found that the front bumper of my car on the passenger side was dented. i called home to see if anyone remembered doing it because i know that i didn't. anyway, after a lot of denying, my dad finally remembered that he hit a 18 wheeler tire skin on the highway one day on the way to work. he said that it was unavoidable but i know it wasn't. he just wouldn't slow down and change lanes. anyway ... this morning when he went to look at it, all he said was "oh ... sucks." he didn't even apologize or say that it was his fault. it's annoying because he doesn't care that he messed up my car. 

on to happier things (although i'm so deep into the unhappiness hole at this point that i don't know if i can dig myself out again) ... i got to see jordan yesterday which was really fun. we went to the galleria to get my wallet which turned out to be only $24 which made me like it a lot more. we had a really great day (which we really needed) and it was nice to be with him again. i don't know why that last week of not seeing him was so hard. the only bad thing about yesterday was that i felt really sick about 30 minutes after meeting jordan. i got a really bad headache and my body was all cold on the inside. it didn't get better for the whole day ... i still don't feel great right now. 

i had my second chemistry test yesterday and it was not good. i don't want to talk about it. but on saturday when i was going to lab, i took a picture of the man who lives in the downstairs apartment who was mean to me at the beginning of the summer. i really hate him because this is what he typically wears when he is in public and he yells at everyone and he has a fat daughter who is entirely worthless and a pathetic son who is in high school who i haven't seen all summer ... i am assuming that they either sent him away or he was arrested. 

we do have a new house guest for the next week or two. his name is bob and he is very elusive. i am taking care of him while jordan and his family go to the beach house in galveston ... i have not seen bob outside of his rodent dome and whenever he wants to go to another place in his cage, he will walk with the dome on his back. he is a good color but his fur is rough and he has juicy eyes. jordan said that bob was like that when they got him. it kind of looks like when i get allergies and the whites of my eyes swell over the black parts. i feel bad for bob because he always has eye crusties ... i think i will spend a part of today looking up any possible explanation for that. i am trying to think of a personality for bob but all i can think is that he reminds me of a turtle. he is pretty sweet and relatively bold because he comes right up to me (a stranger) when i fed him a carrot this morning. kobe seems really interested in bob ... it's like he doesn't remember that he and bob have lived together before. 

last night after jordan dropped me off, i got in to bed and went to sleep. he called later and said that he was stuck in traffic and even though he dropped me off 30 minutes ago he is still really close to my house. after we hung up i went back to sleep and woke up at 4 am and realized that he never called me to tell me he got home safely. i was really worried and i was really hot and sweaty because i think i was running a fever ... i wanted to call him but i was worried i would wake him up if he did get home but i was also afraid that he didn't get home because we had such a good day and things tend to fall apart when you are least expecting it. anyway, i ended up calling and he didn't pick up so i was leaving a message when he called me on the other line and said that he did get home (around 1:30 am) and the he couldn't sleep. we talked a little and then i went back to sleep ... then i had a terrible dream. 

i dreamed that i was brushing my teeth and flossing (which i never do ... i mean the flossing) and somehow i pulled two teeth out of my head with the floss by accident. it was like the root of my teeth were liquifying as i was flossing and they just fell out. it was terrible. then when i woke up one of my front teeth were hurting and i couldn't help but thinking about the girl from memorial city mall ... now i am really freaked out. 

i am taking off work on wednesday because i have to go into the dentist to see if i need to get my wisdom teeth cut out of my head this summer or if it can wait. i kind of want to get it over with ... i really regret getting wisdom teeth. i am also going to get my passport renewed on wednesday.

also, today is me and jordan's 10 month anniversary ... and in one month, we will get to hangout with each other everyday in austin!!! yay us!

so today i get to work and i realize that not one but ALL FOUR ends of my shoelaces are messed up. i mean the aglets have just pooped out. so, i had to tape them. i know ... real ghetto. i don't know what it is about the shoelaces nowadays.

this will probably be the only post today because i have to study for my chemistry lab. do you know what's annoying? i sent out that mass email about a study group and this girl emailed me back to tell me that the chapters are not hard so she doesn't want to do the study group. i hate those people. arg!

i have just done something that i thought i would never do in my college career ... i sent out a mass email to setup a study group for my chemistry exam. i am such a dork. but, in my defense, if i didn't do it i would fail chemistry AGAIN ... and we all know how many times i've taken this class already. 

hi hi! i haven't been blogging constantly today because i didn't bring my apple to work ... i finished my homework and finished reading the chapters that i need to read for my test this weekend and i read a little and finished a book ...

- mr. maybe by jane green

i'm pretty sure that i read this last summer but you know how trashy books kind of blend together. i checked my email and e.l.f. FINALLY shipped my package but they ran out of 3 items that i ordered and they just took it off my list. i should have my package in 5 to 7 days! i need to remember to deduct this money from my checking account. i am trying to be really good about keeping my accounts in order ... i had a slight ($7) overdraft in austin at the end of the semester.

today for lunch i had a can of peaches and a snickers bar that i filched from my dad's office. apparently when he goes grocery shopping without my mom he picks up a couple of bars of chocolate or some m&m's then he brings them to work and eats them ... he has diabetes and he still hasn't come to terms with it i suppose. anyway, last time i was in his office i saw them and he told me how he got them and he said that he hadn't done it in a while and so the candy was a little old. i didn't believe him because he told me not to tell mommy. anyway, now i can say that he wasn't lying and they were pretty old becaus the snickers i ate was a little stale. but, it was the most delicious stale snickers bar i ever had.

i am really tempted to make a list of people that i would happily get rid of if i ruled the world. but, i'm afraid that the list may be found by the police and that i may get arrested.  would just like to say that not many people would survive ... i don't think. then the world would collapse because society cannot function without the idiots that i got rid of. 

i just really want to say that my chemistry professor at hcc is at the top of the list. 

i didn't go to work yesterday because jennifer was at home and i didn't have anything important to do at work that couldn't wait. we ended up going to cafe express for lunch. i had a shell pasta marinara kids meal with a fruit cup and jen also had the shell pasts kids meal but with cheese. then we went to old navy where she found the perfect gladiator shoes (way better than the $200 ones that she found online) and then we went to hobby lobby to pick up some of the materials that i need to do my project (which is coming along slowly). i got a lot of felt, some embroidery thread and some sticker maker refills. jen got this really cute unfinished make-up box with a mirror in it and some bandannas for dwight to wear.

then we went to the galleria to go shopping (i am still scared of memorial city mall). i found the wallet that i am probably going to get (and trade jordan gift cards for) and we went to the fendi store to touch the $2,000 spy purse that jen has been lusting after. it was really pretty and the craftsmanship was beautiful. i wanted to go to urban outfitters because i wanted a new purse since jen got one and i found the saddlebag one that i liked online but i couldn't make myself spend $58 on it so we tried looking for their sale purses (which they had none). so, we went to the urban outfitters at the village and we found this cute medic bag purse on sale for $30. i think that is slightly more reasonable ... if it was $10 (like jennifer's) i would like it better. i am very critical of it right now. anyway, i got it and i got these cute pink and white polka dot tweezers (that were originally $12 ... what the?!) for $1.99. jen ended up getting a new ring and some dangly earrings that really matched her new shoes.

after all that we went home so jen could get ready to go meet aaron's mom (laurie) and go back to dallas. i did her nails (go go green) and i made her try on some of my dresses that i can no longer fit in to or never wear (she took two). then my mom got back from work and we all got ready to go drop jen off at laurie's. on the way to lauie's house the new red honda got a flat and we had to pull into a whataburger and change the flat. me and jen changed it all by ourselves with my mom's supervision. the great thing was that i was wearing a dress and sandals and jen was wearing a new shirt that she couldn't get dirty and we still got it done without dirtying ourselves up. eek! yay us! jen did chip a nail but the good thing was that when she called laurie to tell her that we got a flat, they made different plans to leave in the morning.

so, we went back home and had dinner at cafe express with my parents (me and jen both got kids meals again) and then we went home where i fixed jen's nails and she played with my make-up with me. it was really fun. oh also she helped me make a survival kit for my new purse with band-aids and stuff in it.

there are bobby pins, matches, band-aids, alcohol wipes, safety pins, soap flakes for when you need to use a porta potty and there are no hand washing facilities but you do have a bottle of water, and allergy medicine.

anyway i came to work today and it sucks. i really hate work. we got here a little late (8:50 am) and i had to split four types of cells (which i am done with) and i still have to aliquot some old samples to freeze them. grr. i also still have to take samples of an infection that i did on monday. i can't wait till i go back to school.

oh i got my packages but they didn't send me my free gift. i am really mad. i had to call them and complain and the woman who answered my call was really rude and unhelpful. anyway i had to argue with them to get a voucher that i can take into the store to claim my free gift with. i thought i was very nice on the phone ... maybe i sounded mean because i was so frustrated. anyway, i LOVE the new eye shadow pallets and the benefit show off ruby doo pigment shadow. it is so pretty.

i have a test on saturday for chemistry (i probably already blogged about this a million times) as well as a chemistry lab. i'm not totally prepared for my test but i will be. so, i will see jordan on sunday and he said he would take me swimming again and to go look for jeans and that wallet. i don't know what else he has planned ...

last night i started on my toast plushy project and i found it very difficult. making the faces were easy but making the bodies were hard because i had to sew in multiple dimensions. so, i think i am going to revise my plan and do a toast plushy that does not have thick crust ... and i am going to see about making some totes.

also, jen found this girl on etsy.com that already makes all the things that i want to make ... like the dessert jewelry. grr. there's no real reason to do it myself now. i think i may do it anyway once i get back to austin where i can bake clay and stuff without someone watching me constantly.

i have a test on sunday. i still have one chapter to read and i am having trouble with one set of homework. the chemistry professor still hasn't posted grades yet and i am worried. she claims that she never gets my emails so i'm worried that she never gets my assignments that i email to her. i hate chemistry. i wish i could quit.

nothing really new has happened since the last post except that last night i was on facebook creeping and i started watching this video posted by this girl from ut ... the video was titled "why i'll be hotter than you at 45." i watched it a lot and it made me increasingly unsettled. i don't think i can post the video so i wanted to write a transcript of it to share with everyone ... but i couldn't listen to it so many times. i think everyone who reads this blog has already been summoned to watch the video anyway ... but here are my chief complaints about her video. let me just say that i am probably more critical of her than necessary ...

she assumes that she is already hotter than anyone watching the video. she has weird eyebrows that start in the middle of her brow bone and has a weird arch. she has a HUGE five finger forehead ... i suppose this would have made her attractive in medieval times ... also her nostrils are constantly flaring. her reasons that she enumerates of why she will be hotter than me at 45 is that (1) she wears spf 70 sunscreen, (2) she has "size b tits" and (3) she is tall ... also she adds in that she has a searing wit and a generally good personality. my comments to her list ... sunscreen is the reason you are pasty and look like death's ass, you only praise your "size b tits" because you wish you had bigger ones, and ... yes, you are tall ... but you are also not proportional. also i should say that her lips do this weird thing when she talks ... it's like one side of her mouth has stronger muscles than her other side which makes her lip always curl in an unappetizing manner.

ANGER! ANGER! ANGER!

my dad gave me a cool tablet of paper from oxford that he got at the meeting. i really like it and i wanted to take a picture for all of you but it would just look like paper ... except it has paw prints on the bottom of each page. i am going to use it for chemistry homework though ... i wanted to save it but ... i always do that and i end up with hundreds of packages of unopened special paper. 

i thought i should blog about how i do my chemistry homework. i typically use white printer paper for the stuff that i think the professor is taking up because it looks neater and i like it. but, i cannot keep a straight line so i lined a piece of filler paper with black sharpie and i put it behind the printer paper as a template ... doing homework takes a really long time. and i hate using pencil so the white out is always out making corrections. i am a lunatic. 

my mom is getting my needed materials for my earrings ... i'm off for homework! 

it's a good thing that i got this tablet. the only problem is that the sheets are half an inch smaller than printer paper ... i shall overcome. 

i just got back from lunch with my dad and his work friend. it was ok. kind of boring but at least i had a salad and an hour away from work. yay! 

i have been writing my chemistry professor rude emails and she finally emailed me back and "dear madam"-ed me. the nerve.  

i have also decided to jump start my diet again. i have been a little slack on my food intake since jen was in town ... i used to eat a can of pears for lunch and a chicken club salad from jack in a box ... i looked it up and the salad alone is 300 calories. croutons are 50 calories and the light ranch dressing is 190 ... but i have two packets because one is too measly. blarg. i did not think it was so high in calories ... i mean for a salad ... not a delicious brisket meal ... mmm ... brisket.

any way, i've decided to now eat the side salad for dinner which is 60 calories and will only require one packet ... and of course don't forget the croutons! if i am still hungry i will eat my head.

my nails are no longer pink punk but go go green! it is great ... it is maybelline nail lacquer number 900. it's not as good as rimmel london but it has little glittery specks in it! and it dries really fast. nail polish is my new thing. eek!

i went to class and was let out an hour and a half early because my teacher had to go buy a car ... why she didn't wait until 12:00 pm to go is beyond me. we only finished 1/3 of our lab today. she didn't take any of our homework. so that means that i stayed up until 3:00 am and did homework for no reason. her excuse was that she didn't have anywhere to put our papers. i worked with the same lab group but it was a little better. she also moved our exam back a week which is good. 

i don't think i blogged about the asian girl in my chemistry lab. i don't know her name and i do not talk to her but she amuses me. everything about her is wrong. she has a really asian haircut that is really wispy and colored in a red color. she has a really round and plump face that matches her round and plump body ... i know i shouldn't be talking about being round and plump but she is way fatter than me. she files her nails into a sharp point and wears mismatched patterns and colors. she wears flats even though she has cankles. she always seems really confused and she is always in the way. so far, she has broken glass wear during each lab. i dislike her and will not talk to her because she is such a nuisance.

   

on to other things! my dad got back from oxford and he came bearing gifts. i got a grey hoodie and a box of chocolates and my dad got jordan a hat. my dad also brought like £80 which translates into about $200 as a souvenir. we decided to choose the ones that we liked and trade the rest in for real money. 

why in the holy hell is a salad $7 when it is only leaves and sauce?! i went to la madeline everyone's meal was less than $7 (other than me) and was more hearty and delicious. i am jealous. i realized that at most restaurants, salads are as expensive or more expensive than a pasta dish or a burger. it is annoying. 

i must get to studying my chemistry since i still have a lot of work to get done for tomorrow's lab. grrr. 

upcoming events in my life ... 

july 

1: apartment contract signing

5: bunny surgery

12: chemistry exam #2

16: wisdom teeth consultation

18: wisdom teeth extraction of death 

20: chemistry exam #3

august 

2: chemistry final exam

13: pay ut tuition and fees

15: last day of work at utmb

16: move to austin

27: first day of classes

that's all i think. 

i saw jordan only yesterday but i miss him already. i didn't get to talk to him very long today because when he called, i was napping because i got up early while jen was getting her wisdom teeth cut out and built two storage units and set up a t.v. in the room so she could watch t.v. in bed. i miss him a lot a lot. i really can't wait to go back to austin where we can hang out all the time ... especially since we now have apartments in the same complex! 

oh! by the by ... my childhood friend blaine is thinking about taking a year off college and moving to austin to be a rock star. i think he should come because then i will have a total of 2 friends in austin. yay me! haha ... my situation is not so dire. i kid. i kid. anyway, it would be so fun if he lived in austin instead of dreary ol' vermont because then could hang out and read goosebump books together and put on plays roughly based on a wrinkle in time ... it will be fab! we could also do fun austin stuff and i could be their roadie like i was last year in march if the band will have me ... i have no upper body strength so i am pretty much useless ... but it must be kind of cool in the music world to have a girl roadie who can't do much to help ... i hope. anyway, i vote for the relocation! 

on to other news ... nothing new happening here since i didn't go to work today either. i have to get my chemistry homework done tomorrow. not that she will take it up on saturday. i hate her. there is a discussion on one of the boards online and apparently everyone is having problems getting in contact with her. i am complaining on saturday and creating a mutiny. i am good at that.

what else ... what else ... oh! i cleaned my room and am almost entirely done rearranging all the furniture. i also have to get jordan to reschedule the bunny appointment that he made for kobe. if you didn't know, kobe is 6 months old now and is going to get neutered. he is a big boy and i think it is time ... he's starting to get smelly when before, he didn't smell bad at all. i don't think deodorant will work for this stench. also, it'll be a lot easier to train him to be sweet. i also have to call the austin apartments and reschedule when i am going up to sign my contract ... i am still waiting on my first exam grade. i suspect that they will not be posted in a timely manner. it's a gut feeling. i am still waiting for my e.l.f. shipment. i really want to go to target tomorrow to pick up some more rimmel london nail lacquer. also, my laptop has been making this whirring sound like it is overheated. it never did that before. i am concerned. damned apple. 

i suppose that is all ... it is really late now ... it's actually friday i suppose. but i will not consider it tomorrow until after i go to sleep and wake up again. 

weird weekend ...

me, jordan and his little sister, lauren, went to memorial city mall this past weekend and while we were in XXI, this girl fell/had a seizure right in front of us. she chipped her front tooth on the counter and busted her lip. she bled EVERYWHERE. it was so shocking that we had to leave. but, not until i accidentally put my arm in a puddle of her blood and had to go wash my arm in the bathroom in the food court where some woman waiting to wash her hands says to her friend, "what is wrong with that girl? why is she washing her arm?" she was very impatient.

after that, jordan and i went to ikea for a meatball lunch while lauren ate a hot dog from the downstairs food area. then we went to gallery furniture where we got free ice cream and jordan got a basketball and a sweatshirt that is really ugly. then we went to the galleria to look for a wallet ... i didn't find one ... then we went to wish to try and find something to spend my stupid wish gift certificate on ... didn't find anything. then we went to academy where jordan bought nothing ... then house of pies, borders, and whole foods.

i got cute nested snack boxes at borders and i got a sheet of stickers. i also got jordan monster's ball ...

oh, on the way to house of pies, this woman honked at me and a driving war ensued ... i think i won.

didn't do anything on sunday except take my test ... it was ok ... not great. then i sat at home and ordered stuff online from e.l.f. which is the best online store EVER. then i cleaned my room because jennifer came to visit. she is still here ... probably sleeping ... lucky duck.

not much of a post today. mostly elipses but i'm not really in the mood to blog. i have a ton of chapters to study. also, i am really tired and i am already done with all my lab work for the day.

still waiting for my avon package and now i am waiting for my e.l.f. package!

hi hi hi! i have been studying all morning ... i have finished all my flashcards and some chapter 12 review questions ... i got 6 wrong out of 19 questions but i think some of the answers in the back of the book are wrong because i am just off my a decimal point and i'm pretty sure i am right ... or i forgot to convert something ... i don't know. i am going to study for another hour then eat lunch and then figure out the problems that i have. hopefully i can finish my chapter 13 review questions before lunch.

but, i feel like a little procrastination break. i don't really have anything to blog about ... except i went to target last night with my mom to try and look for the wallet that i wanted. we had to go to two stores just to find it and when i finally found it, i realized that it wasn't designed how i thought it was. so, i didn't buy it. boo. it was disappointing. so i am now on the look out again for a good wallet.

i still haven't heard back from the facebook people. i am getting annoyed but i suppose i have to just wait for them to help me. it's annoying because i've gotten a couple of messages from stacy in italy that i can't reply to. boo.

kobe has started really liking me. i think. every morning he waits for me at the front of his cage. i take a shower and then feed him. he might be waiting for food but he used to not eat out of my hand but now he does. i am also looking for a good hay feeder. i'm pretty sure kobe hates eating the hay that he just peed on ... i bought one when i was in austin but it was terrible and kind of hard to use i think i may just attach a little tray on a slant that i can put hay on.

i decided last night that i need style. i just don't have it and sloppy is not a style. so the thing is, i still want to wear jeans, my converse, and my tank tops (once i can fit into them again) ... so how do i make that into a style that doesn't look like i don't care? but i don't want to look like i care too much (which i obviously do but not everyone needs to know that).

well, enough procrastinating. must go off to study some more!

so my studying got a little sidetracked ... the meeting this morning was not so much a meeting but a presentation about how to make a vaccine. from start to finish. it was an hour and a half long. typically the meeting is about 30 minutes long. it was boring as hell. at least i didn't fall asleep like jignesh. also, i had to do this online training for my job. it is really boring and i didn't even really read all the information ... i just answered the questions based on common sense. i am now done but i also have to split my cells and prepare a lot of plates for tomorrow and next week.

my dad is leaving for oxford on saturday and i still have to come to work. the bad thing is, i have to drive myself every morning and night. that'll suck because i can't sleep in the car like i usually do. also, i won't really have anything to do next week because my dad won't be around to give me experiment assignments. but the good thing is, i'll have time to do all my homework for chemistry.

i don't think i blogged about my last chemistry lab. it was still bad but at least the teacher was there. i had to work with these stupid asain boys who sat next to me. it was terrible and not my fault. i was the first one in the classroom and so i chose my seat. all the asains just ended up sitting next to me. i HATE that! why is it that asains seem to always want to congregate. i will try my hardest next time we have lab to not be the first one in class and instead be the one who choose who they want to sit next to. anyway, the asian guy who tried to get my number last time was in my group and it ends up that he's 28! he said he graduated high school and directly went to college and he just graduated. let's calculate that shall we? that means that he was in college for 10 years! he said his major was pre-med at u of h ... so my question is, why is he in an intro to chemistry class? he said that he didn't realize that he needed the class to go to medical school. the problem now, as i see it is that he can't have taken organic chemistry if he didn't have intro to chemistry so ... what exactly did he do in his major? he is an idiot and thinks he knows everything and he is always trying to correct me even when i am right ... which is always because i study a lot for this chemistry class. anyway, everyone in my class goes to hcc or u of h for college. also, before we even started lab, i was watching my professor preparing chemicals for the experiment and she contaminated everything even before we started. our experiment obviously did not work. what a waste of time. on a positive note, some white guy asked me to explain the homework questions to him because he said that i "seemed to know what i was doing." it was nice the he noticed because i am usually so stupid about chemistry.

i really hope i do well on my test on saturday. i should start studying but i can't because i like to be done with all my lab work before starting my personal studies and i can't do my lab work because everyone is using the machines that i need. blarg.