so i think it would be interesting if i listed all the things that is wrong with me at this point in time ...

my finger still kind of hurts from when i slammed it in the truck door. this is actually getting better but there is still a crack in the nail and when i shower, it makes the nail softer and so it hurts. other than that, the swelling is going down (just as dr. jen predicted) and it is starting to not look as gross.

i have a terrible crick in my neck and left shoulder. this was from that weekend bulldozer game. i had a really hard time sleeping and putting on clothes and showering, etc. for about 2 days and now it is going down a little. it only pinches a slight bit.

my left big toe hurts. i think it is because of my church heels. they are a little tight in the front and so i have to squeeze a little to get into them. anyway, i think i squeezed so much that my nail pushed into the flesh and it hurts. it also may be a little infected but this used to happen to me a lot when i was little so this is not such a hassle. but, i did complain about it to jordan so i thought i would put that complaint on the list too.

my lower right jaw (where i got my wisdom tooth taken out) is infected. this one is new. i flushed the area out monday night because i hadn't done it in a while and i was worried that even if i couldn't feel anything in there that there was something in there. anyway, i flushed it out and then it started hurting like shit. anyway, last night after telling my mom that i needed antibiotics because i think i might have an infection, i went to the bathroom and looked around with my lighted dentist mirror. then after a while of poking and proding, i saw something. at first i thought it was a new tooth pushing out of my jaw at an astonishing rate but in actuality, it was pus. YES, PUS! it was really pale in color and it gushed out. it was so nasty. anyway, i juiced as much as i could out of my jaw and rinsed with water. then i brushed my teeth and rinsed with listerine. then i went to bed. it doesn't hurt today at all except when i push my cheeck against it really hard.

i'm gross and you hate me, don't you?!

hi hi! 

i got to work half an hour earlier than i typically get here. i am not particularly happy about that because it means that i will be here longer than usual. grr. i really hate this job and i am pretty sure that this will be the last summer that i do this. i made the amount of money that i wanted and i'm sure i will get any recommendation that i need for med school or anything else that i may need a recommendation for and this job just makes me really unhappy. also it is really starting to annoy me when my dad says that some results are "really exciting" because they really are not. they are nothing close to exciting. i mean i am the type of person who gets giddy about a sheet of stickers ... if i don't find something exciting, it's not.

also, i am not really happy with my dad right now. yesterday i found that the front bumper of my car on the passenger side was dented. i called home to see if anyone remembered doing it because i know that i didn't. anyway, after a lot of denying, my dad finally remembered that he hit a 18 wheeler tire skin on the highway one day on the way to work. he said that it was unavoidable but i know it wasn't. he just wouldn't slow down and change lanes. anyway ... this morning when he went to look at it, all he said was "oh ... sucks." he didn't even apologize or say that it was his fault. it's annoying because he doesn't care that he messed up my car. 

on to happier things (although i'm so deep into the unhappiness hole at this point that i don't know if i can dig myself out again) ... i got to see jordan yesterday which was really fun. we went to the galleria to get my wallet which turned out to be only $24 which made me like it a lot more. we had a really great day (which we really needed) and it was nice to be with him again. i don't know why that last week of not seeing him was so hard. the only bad thing about yesterday was that i felt really sick about 30 minutes after meeting jordan. i got a really bad headache and my body was all cold on the inside. it didn't get better for the whole day ... i still don't feel great right now. 

i had my second chemistry test yesterday and it was not good. i don't want to talk about it. but on saturday when i was going to lab, i took a picture of the man who lives in the downstairs apartment who was mean to me at the beginning of the summer. i really hate him because this is what he typically wears when he is in public and he yells at everyone and he has a fat daughter who is entirely worthless and a pathetic son who is in high school who i haven't seen all summer ... i am assuming that they either sent him away or he was arrested. 

we do have a new house guest for the next week or two. his name is bob and he is very elusive. i am taking care of him while jordan and his family go to the beach house in galveston ... i have not seen bob outside of his rodent dome and whenever he wants to go to another place in his cage, he will walk with the dome on his back. he is a good color but his fur is rough and he has juicy eyes. jordan said that bob was like that when they got him. it kind of looks like when i get allergies and the whites of my eyes swell over the black parts. i feel bad for bob because he always has eye crusties ... i think i will spend a part of today looking up any possible explanation for that. i am trying to think of a personality for bob but all i can think is that he reminds me of a turtle. he is pretty sweet and relatively bold because he comes right up to me (a stranger) when i fed him a carrot this morning. kobe seems really interested in bob ... it's like he doesn't remember that he and bob have lived together before. 

last night after jordan dropped me off, i got in to bed and went to sleep. he called later and said that he was stuck in traffic and even though he dropped me off 30 minutes ago he is still really close to my house. after we hung up i went back to sleep and woke up at 4 am and realized that he never called me to tell me he got home safely. i was really worried and i was really hot and sweaty because i think i was running a fever ... i wanted to call him but i was worried i would wake him up if he did get home but i was also afraid that he didn't get home because we had such a good day and things tend to fall apart when you are least expecting it. anyway, i ended up calling and he didn't pick up so i was leaving a message when he called me on the other line and said that he did get home (around 1:30 am) and the he couldn't sleep. we talked a little and then i went back to sleep ... then i had a terrible dream. 

i dreamed that i was brushing my teeth and flossing (which i never do ... i mean the flossing) and somehow i pulled two teeth out of my head with the floss by accident. it was like the root of my teeth were liquifying as i was flossing and they just fell out. it was terrible. then when i woke up one of my front teeth were hurting and i couldn't help but thinking about the girl from memorial city mall ... now i am really freaked out. 

i am taking off work on wednesday because i have to go into the dentist to see if i need to get my wisdom teeth cut out of my head this summer or if it can wait. i kind of want to get it over with ... i really regret getting wisdom teeth. i am also going to get my passport renewed on wednesday.

also, today is me and jordan's 10 month anniversary ... and in one month, we will get to hangout with each other everyday in austin!!! yay us!

so i thought i had been getting better in the phlegm and sickness department after last weekend's 16 hours of sleep patterns .. however i was wrong. i started feeling bad again this weekend on saturday and it has gotten worse. i started taking mucinex and it worked really well the first day that i took it but then it stopped working ... boo. then i started on my old regiment of potions and tonics and whining a lot (jordan can attest to this). 

anyway it culminated tonight when i got back from classes and decided to take a nap. it was so cold that i used all of my blankets -- my ikea one, the green fleece and the pink comforter from taiwan. i was still cold. the heater was even on. my belly and my back were burning hot while my legs, hands and head were all freezing. then jordan came over after his biology discussion and found me cuddled under layers of blankets and said that it was probably making my fever worse. so i was no longer allowed to stay under my blankets and i was cranky. then i ate some bluebell ice cream that made me feel better but then i threw it up after an hour. it was so gross and some got in my hair so i had to shower. 

also, my shower sprung a severe leak last night at around one in the morning. i emailed the management company and then the owner sent me a rude email this afternoon. i hate him so much. 

anyway, all around bad. also i got a thermometer and i had my temperature taken and it said i had a temperature of 101.4 degrees but it was kinda skewed because the instructions said not to drink anything cold or hot before taking your temperature ... i had a lot of powerade. my little cousin has bronchitis so my mom is worried about me having it so if my temperature doesn't subside by the morning, i have to go to the doctor.

on a happier note, i went to the outlet mall this sunday after going to church ... that's right ... church. anyway i found these cute nike sport shoes for $20 but they sold for like $60 or something ... they are really cute.

anyway i am at the gym right now watching jordan referee. 

also, chemistry quiz tomorrow. boo-hiss ...

things that have already bothered me this week ... it is only tuesday and i had monday off. 

- skecher shoes

- people who wave frantically before class starts

- people who wear led zeppelin shirts to rock discussion

i suppose that is all so far. also last week i was really sick and i carried a box of kleenex around with me along with two packages of ricola cough drops. so this girl sat down next to me in my egypt class and i was sniffling and she looked at me like i had the plague ... i was getting myself a cough drop and she just kept looking at me. so i said, "i'm sick ... do you want a cough drop?" and offered her a ricola. then she glared at me, gathered her things and said, "i'll just move." people are rude. 

also last week i had a terrible stomach ache much like the ones i used to get when i was little. my mom used to put me on her lap and feed me crackers ... my favorites were chicken in a biskit and nabisco vegetable thins. anyway ... i was on my way home from a history of rock discussion that is a 30 minute walk to my apartment. jordan was with me and he was forced to cook me dinner in a hurried manner and this is what he comes up with ... 

also i feel i should just comment on the death of heath ledger ... i'm somewhat shocked ... that's all i can say i suppose. i didn't think he'd be one to overdose. 

also i should note that this is the third surprising death this school year ... it's time for another three to start dying i guess.