so i don't get my next pain pill until 2 am and i don't want to go to sleep and then get up with a ton of pain so i thought i would blog ... and since jordan is getting surgery tomorrow, i thought i would blog him something nice that he can read when he gets home and will later not remember because he will be SUPER drugged up ... 

GROSS MUSHY ALERT.

i am really glad that i met jordan. he is probably the best decision that i have ever made in my life ... regardless of how it ends up (and i'm 98% sure it will end well). i think that he is super nice to me and really tolerant and he lets me be mean and cranky to him and always forgives me. i think that he is really perfect for me because we want the same things in life and we have the same sense of humor (most of the time ... i do not get that new "funny" website) and personality. he always encourages me to do things that i want to do like starting a dessert and cupcake shop and perfecting my recipes, doing crafties, going on unreasonable diets with me ... he always wants the best for me and encourages me to study even if it makes me have a temper tantrum and he even forces me into the library with snacks in hand. he rides the bus with me to places that he doesn't need to go so that i will not have to ride the bus alone and walk alone, he carries a lot of my stuff and he will come to my apartment just to park my car if i am having problems. 

he is the only person (or was before this post) other than my mom and jennifer to know my problems with shorts and how i hate wearing them because my fat thighs always make them ride up in the middle for a front crotch wedgie. he knows that i hate having things not neat and will try to help me clean. he remembers to water my plants semi-regularly, feed thurman, and go out to pick up my mail. he will take out the trash because he knows i hate leaving the apartment alone and having the frat guys next door look at me.

he will ask me to go to dinner and i will tell him that we will leave right after i finish painting my nails but then i take about an hour getting them perfect and then we are about to leave and i somehow mess them up and end up taking the color all off ... he still hasn't gotten mad about that. he just offers to take me to a salon to get my nails done. 

he will walk in front of me to hide me from people that i do not want to see and people who make me feel uncomfortable and bad about myself. he pats me on the belly and goes "now, now" to me when i am feeling sick and pouty. he will go out really late at night to go to cvs to pick up a bottle of tylenol and a thermometer for me and bring it to my place when i have a monster fever. 

he takes me to the kolache place on sunday mornings and then takes me to do my laundry at jester so that i don't have to venture to the laundry place by myself. he almost always pays for the laundry machine with his ut card. 

he painted my apartment so that i could get it market ready. then he went over the mistakes with a teeny tiny white-out pen ... don't tell the new tenant. he is planning to put a finish on my bed frame from ikea once we get back to austin. 

i just really like him. he says that he sometimes thinks that i don't really like being with him but i really do. it is my favorite thing. most of the time when i am not with him, i am wishing that i was. sometimes i stare at my phone thinking that i really want to talk to him but i don't want to bother him and then he miraculously calls me ... that is my favorite. i've really missed him this summer and all the small things that we used to do together like cook and bake, watch t.v., go to redbox, adventures at bookpeople and toy joy, sitting around the apartment, going to target and walmart to browse, getting our haircut ... and a lot of other things. 

i can't wait to go back to austin in a couple of weeks and get to see jordan all the time. i am really glad that we got apartments together and that we will be even closer and it will be even more convenient and that we will have more than one place to hang out at ... i don't even care if we don't have stolen cable ... i'll just be glad to be back with you.